ThisIsReaL,ThisIsMe..

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Meaningless

COMPLICATING! Which is evryting in my lyfe now. CONFUSING! Which im hating now. CANT B TRUSTED! Which is soo true. SWIT TALKERS R BULLSHITS! Hell Gyeah im right!

Nas thx 4 the concern. Evrythings complicated if u let ur mind go haywire, Chill, Take a deep breath, Calm urself down and let it flow. Haha! Rmember tiz? Yeah i did let it out. U r my fren! N I appreciate u loadss! But now is not the right tyme. I promise! Once im fine. Kite share wit u k? Sakeela will chill. No worries! *Wink wink*

My mind is gone, im spinning round. Im loosing grip. Whats happening? I stray my love. This is what i feel. AmIFallingDeeply4U? I hope not.

This post is meaningless. N i slipyy.

1:03 AM

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Specially 4 u..

Azura, Im sincerely n truly sori of wat happen btween us tiz past few daes. Its owas abt misunderstanding tat leads us to argueing. We didnt talk things out n strted to treat ech othr lyke strangers. I realize its my fault, and not urs. Im the 1 whu is to blame. I was selfish. I didnt think abt u. Abt how u feel. But u urself noe me. Wen im upset/angry. I tend to ignore u. N to u it seems tat i dont care. But the truth is. I do care abt u n our frenship. I juz need some tyme to cool down. N wen i was fine, i refresh my mind. Thinking wat i did wrong to u. N the problem is. Nothing. U urself noe tat u too did nothin wrong. Once again, misunderstanding is the issue.

Evrytyme we lead to tiz problem. Ur the 1 whu owas give in. Ur the 1 whu wana make things right. N as 4 me?? I did nothin. I did nothin to make our frenship stand strong. I will owas b the 1 whu was waitin 4 u to make the first move. Wat ur frens say are true. I agree wit em. N wen i heard it, i was shocked n i didnt even realize i was damn selfish 2wards u. Yes i noe im stupid n kept thinking abt myself n not even care how u feel. I hate myself abt it.

I noe u had enough of me. I noe u cant stand my selfishness. I noe sometymes, u do hate me. Or mayb? But azura, y r u still being so kind to me? I didnt appreciate the way u treated me. I didnt show my appreaciation. I didnt show my kindness wenever we get into arguements. Am i still fit to b ur fren? Its my mistake. N i shld accept the fact.

I must change myself to the better b4 something happen to our frenship. If tiz is to happen again, I promise, I'll b the first to make things the way u wana it to b. I promise, n wat i mean is true.

Im sori azura. Will u 4give my mistakes tat ive done to u all tiz while we've been 2gethr? Im sori if i had ever hurt u in aniwayy. I dont wan us to keep argueing abt tiz. Im tired of tiz. N the part we didnt smile to ech othr. Tats the part whr we think ech of us was arrogant. But sometymes we do hv problems. N was too moody to smile right? Im sori. Im sori to ur frens too! Ive hurt u too mch! Im sorii.

No matter wat happen, Ur my true fren, ur here till the end. Frens hang on to the ups n the downs. N we will stay strong wenevr thrs problems comes ahead us. We will go throu it 2gthr. ILOVEYOUSOOMUCH! N IMISSYOUSOOBADLY!

11:46 PM

Monday, August 18, 2008

Out wit emm!

Skul was skul. Nothing learnt so far. Nothin intresting happen. OH YA! Almost 4got. Had a test on POA juz now. Didnt even study. So, I guess i'll do badlyy for it. Whu cares aniway? I did badly for evry test for evry subjects! Shessh! I slack ALOT mann! BuckUp Sakeela!

Ok, after skul did went out wif my Gfs. Firstly, alifah kept asking us whr we wana go aftr skul. All of us wanted to go hm. Mcm aku tk tau je, kau nk suro kite tman kau kn? Malu la konon nk tnye! Haha! Den muke die mcm kecian gtu kn. So i say i'll accompany her to wait 4 her boifyy. As i myself wana buy something. Den tibe2, Lyza n Rizah pon nk join. Kpo kepa? Haha! Nahh. I was hapi thou. Shikin jek actionn tknk ikot. Not sure y. Mayb she has a date wit 'A'. Haha!

Soo off to JP. Alifah n myself bought tiz particular thing tat is important to us. So aftr tat. Lyza n myself wanted to go hm. As my head hurts. Tibe2 sehh.. So left wif Alifah n rizah. Rizah wanted to eat. N ape lag? Dgr mkan je we chnge our mind n tag along wit em. So, rizah thought of goin to DELIFRANCE. N we didnt plan anithin abt it. So nxt tyme. Kite bring more moneyy ok! I wan those ice-creams! Those chocalate cakes! YUM2! Didnt take a pic of our food. Coz ech of us were too hungry n kite bedal without even noticing we 4got to take a pic. We bought 4 iceLemonTea. Or iszit 2? Haha! Gfs, u noe i noe laa! Nn the plce, Standard oi! I lyykkeee!!

Well, I had an awesome tyme wit u babes! Hope we will do tiz again somedae. Its difficult to spent tyme wit ech othr, coz ech of us r bz wit our own stuffs aftr skul. The only tyme we hv is during skul hrs. I did njoy myself. It was a blast! We did noe more abt ech othr. Lauging, Sharing problems. Gossips! Is how we get soo close! N ILOVEYOUBABES! Thankieu soo mch 4 the dae! Ok enough wif the talking. We did some snap2!

Toilet is the first plce to snap2!

US!

Hawwtt laa tu korang pikerr??

Part ni mcm biase. Alifah steeppp cute!

Admiring n counting my jerawats is wat i doo bestttt!!!

Pic is blurr. But the plce is sooo class u!

Lyza n Sakeela! <3

Rizah n Alifah! <3

The cute ones! Hehek

The.. I dono watt. Rizahh muke! Alifah, idong maintain ehh!

Rizah: Lyzaaa, cpt la skett oii! Aku nk mkan nii!

Alifah: Hehek! Aku lapa, aku lapaaa!! Sedapp nye.. Sedapp nyee!!

Im soo thankful wen ur wit us! =)

How cute cld theyyy b??!

Alifah the GORGEOUS 1!

I love tiz pic of hers!! Rizah, the ADORABLE 1! Cute kn cute knnn??

Lyza, the HAWWTT 1!

I LOVE TIZ 3 BABES! Shikin's missinggg!! Rugi kau tk join! Nxt tyme ok? =)

MY TAGBOARD IS DYING! Bsk msk skolaa lbt! Weee! K on Thurs, My class will b havin a trip to tiz AirForce thingyy. Wat the hell iszit for?? It has nothin to do wit our course, whch is OFFICE! Boodooohh nye cekguuu!

Almost 4got. Saw ALOT of frens along the wayy. MIZA too!! Damn! i miss herr hell loads!!

K ppl. Keep the tag rollingg!! Chiow! =)

1:42 AM

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Complicated

Evrything happens 4 a reason. Alot of things r playin wit my mind n feelings. I must face the fact. Tiz wont happen if i wasnt tat stupid! Evrthing is ovr. But y must u do those things? What is the purpose? What is the main reason behind to it? Shocked n hurt is owas thr. U r brilliant enough to think. Now its vry complicated. We dont noe the truth. The stry is still a mystery to us..

Yes, god is testing our frenship. We must b strong in watevr we face in. N now is the tyme. Mayb we nvr face tiz kinda situation b4 in our frenship. But watevr it is, dont giveup. I noe we can go throu tiz 2gthr. I understand n shld not think negetively. But its ur dcision. Its u whu can end tiz. N im owas here 4 u. Plz, Don blame urself on wat happen. Its no ones fault.

How cld tiz happen to me? To us?

N to the othr. U stuupidd dumb arsehole!!

10:00 PM

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Moody

Came bck frm skul early todae. Currently hv no mood 4 anithing right now. Sadness n anger is wat im feeling. Nvr been in tiz kinda situation b4. I was owas the hapi2 smiley2 gurl. I had no problems abt relationships or anithing. Coz i was scared to give it a try. N wen it happens. I noe how it feels. N sometymes, u juz wana giveup on guys. N juz b sgl 4 the rest of ur lyfe! But u urself noe u cant right? Am i right? YESS!! Damn! I hate wats happening to me. Crying dosent helps. Yes i noe. 4getting abt tat person is the thing u need to consider. N yes i alrd did! Tyme to move on! N tats wat im doin now. Currently, guys are not on my mind. Dont even wana think abt it at all! N r not important too! But FRENS r..

Something happen between me n sistalurbku 2dae. Im too hurt n sad to type wat happen. Let tyme heal evryting. Azura, wen i saw u cry infront of me for the FIRST TYME, abt our frenship. I was speechless, n touch. I noe u do care abt me, abt our frenship. N u don wan me to get hurt. Its ok. Im hurt enough. But plz, don blame urself. Coz u noe its not ur fault. Nobody is in fault here. Trust me. I'll b fine. N u noe i wont hate u. Not a lil bit. N i wont. Im so greatful to hv u by my side all the tyme. Remember, my secrets r urs too aite! N im sori if i ever hurt u in aniway. IM SORI. ILOVEYOU N IMISSYOUSOOBADLY!!

N TO MY GFs, thx soo mch 4 evrything. I was touch wen u babes care n comfort me wen i was crying. Sori i didnt share. 4 now its kinda personal to me. Wen the tyme comes, i'll share k.

To Lyza, i noe wat ur thinkin. But its not. U urself noe tat im soo thankful to hv u wif us. Jgn piker bkn2 k. Plz don. I was hving some problems. N suddenly. Mate bocoh sendiri. Hehe! Rizah, thx 4 the hug babe!! Nk lag! Hehe! Alifah, thx 4 cheering me up n makin me laugh wen i was still crying! Hehe! Shikin, thx 4 the concern tat u wana noe wat happen. I appreciate loads. =) THX GFSKU! ILOVEUBABESSOOMUCH tauuu!!

Ive not even pay for my classPhoto. Pimples r killing me!! My eyes r hurting soo bad! Been havin no mood. Guys r useless. Faking a smile.

4:09 PM

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Skul, Frens!

Been nt updating coz i cant upload pics! N now da ok. Coz i changed the software. Ok todae..

Skul was gerekkk! Well not skul laa, but FRENS! Skul is soo wasting my tyme! Nothin learnt so far. Lyke criously! Im attending skul for the sake of getting my Nitec Cert. N oso no nagging frm parents! && I recieve a letter frm ITE! It shows my attendance for BPF. Its only 83.33%. Its suppose to b 100%! I did attend her lsn everydae! Boodoohhh nye cekguu! But den i merayap outside. Thrs the reason to it ok. BORING N TK PHM!! So lebeh baek klua knknkn?? N ive been coming late for the first lsn. Ni sume ALIFAH nye psl laaaa!! Hehe!

Ok, tons of projects are not done. N I dont even noe whr to strt. Well since i step into ITE lyfe, ive been slacking ALOT! N now maken pemalas oi! Its soo difficult to concentrate. Crious! Dont believe? Come join class OI. N u will taste it!

PICTURES TYME! ZOOM IN! MY PIMPLES R SAYING HELLOOO!

FRENS! ILOVEYOU!

AZURA, IREALLYMISSYOUSOBADLY! ILOVEYOUSOMUCHTAUU!! U R NOT 4GOTTEN.

N KEEP THE TAG ROLLING PPL! N Randy, as if ur English is sooo bagos! Nnti kau! Aku blng alifah arr!! Hmmph! Shikin, Hes mine. Go find some1 else ok! && Changed ur hp wallppr tuu! Rimas aku! Hehe! Alifah, Lyza n Rizah aku daa updatee!! Weeee!!!

IHATEYOU. BUT IM CONFUSED.

10:45 PM

Friday, August 8, 2008

Spending Tyme wit u..

Todae was super fun coz DanielTan treated us at a restuarant! Well it was the skul restuarant. Tk la standard/class la sgt. RIZA N ALIFAH was KECOHRABLE! Haha! The food was great! But after tat some of us felt dizzy. Ovrall i had an awsome tyme! Specially wit my GFS+Amira&Sara ard. Thx babes! ILOVEYOUBABES!! But at the same tyme, SISTALURB is owas in my mind all the tyme!

After tat session, went off to azura hse.

Azura, spending tyme wit u was the most important thing i need now. Not only gossips, but sharing my problems, sadness n feelings. Sori tat i cried infront of u juz now. But i juz cant help it. Im confused abt tiz. Sooner or ltr, I'll b fine. I juz miss u soo much! Those tyme we spent 2gethr was precious! Althou it was juz for a few hrs, i did treasure evry sgl sec wit u. Thx 4 hearing my problems. My seacrets r urs too. If thrs anithin bothering u, pls, tell me. Im here 4 u owas. N u noe i will! Its so good to hv u ard me wen i need u most of the tyme. Spending tyme wit u is worth while! I cldnt imagine livin without u as my bestest fren. Ur my true fren, ur here till the end. ILOVEYOUSOOMUCHAZURA!

Did chatted wit randy, thx. I cried wen u say tat, but i realize its no use. I wont get stress abt it. I promise! =)

I dont noe wats wif me tiz few daes, I feel useless, lonely, n evrytyme i think of some1, i cried, felt angry, but at the same tyme, its no use thinkin abt some1 whu i really hate. Coz ireallyhateyou. Tyme will heal it. Its just too strong to let it go. Im tired of crying. I wont b a fool by loving u. Baby ive 4gotten abt u.
YES I ALRD DID. Now its ovr..

N criously, iszit my com or wat? i cant upload pics n even resize tiz wrds!! DammIt!

12:28 AM

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Friends

Without frens, I'll b dead 4 sure in skul. They are owas thr wen i need em. To pour out my sadness n problems. Talking abt crushes, boyf, famly n even gossips! But sometymes, we tend to misunderstood abt ech othr. I hate wen it happens. At first we were all in diffrent grps of gurls in class. N wen daes goes by, we mix ard, n by doin tat, we realize tat we were in the wrng grps. End up, the 5 of us get so close in the middle of the mth. I LOVE U BABES SOO MUCH! I wld lyke us to maintain tiz frenship. I wan tiz to keep on flowing.

ALIFAH ur the gurl whu will owas makes me smile n laugh evrydae without fail.

SHIKIN ur the gurl whu is vry shy, but i noe ur makin the effort to talk more wit us, n i can c tat.

LYZA ur the gurl whu is innocent. TAP! nonsense ehh.. hehe! Eventhou u juz join us. I felt tat uve been wit us 4 the past few mths. Thx 4 joining. U make us more hyper!

RIZAH ur the fierce 1 at tymes but owas giler2 wen it comes to crazyness! Gurl, remember tiz, wen u hv problems, do share. Don keep it. Tats wat we r here 4. Althou im not tat great in r/s, i do understand how u feel. N we will owas b here wen u need us aite!

Gurls, do come evrydae 4 lsn. P.E je kite caaboottt! Hehe! It will b a total bore without u babes!

nn i don hv ani pics of u all sehh.. Sume pade Alifah n Rizah nye camere. I don hv it bcoz of tiz stuuupiiddd memory crd! Kite ambek pic byk2 k. Sotong nye lsn pon jad uh! Hehe!

To my SISTALURB, i realize we don really hangout tat mch. Our tymetble sechdule is wayy diffrent, n its hard 4 us. But no matter wat, we must try to hangout more. Abt hym, i really wana help u. But i don wan ur heart to get hurt again. If i don care abt u, i will wan u to get hurt by u getting to noe tiz person more closer. But i don wan it to happen. I saw u suffer b4. N it wont happen again. I noe its difficult to 4get. I noe how u feel. I felt it b4, n it hurts me soo deeply. But lyfe has to move on. Thrs more to find. N im sure thrs better. U shld noe wat im referring to. N i noe thrs some1 else tat touches ur heart othr den hym. Hehe! Azura, I hope we cld spent more tyme 2gthr lyke we use to. I realize how mch u meant to me. I promise to treasure evry sgl tyme wen im wit u. U r everythin. I miss those tymes.. IMISSYOUSOOBADLY!

10:17 PM

Monday, August 4, 2008

My First!

RIZAH! A million thx coz u help me wif my blogskin n evrything! Aku syg kau byk2 tao! Ive given u a hug! Nk lag blng aku. Jgn malu2! Hehe! Alifah&Shikin, korang stakat ktawe pt aku! Tk ble harraapppp!! Hehe! Lyza, u nvr come skul, so i don blame u beb! Ok I LOVE MY GFS!!

Nwae, tiz gonna b my first tyme blogging. Ive thought alott on starting. First of all, I don wana my lyfe to b shown to tiz particular person. My closest frens shld noe whu. Secondly, I'll gonna spill my feelings. Well, u donoe whus gona read. It might b ur enemy, crush or a somebodyy!! N yaa! Eversince ive step into ite lyfe, I realize tat ppls strted to hv a blog on thier own. Bkn recently, but its been agess!! N of coz! SISTALURBKU N GFS force me to do 1. Korang da puaasss??? Goooooddd! Ive done wit everthing i need in my blog. I need to noe more abt tiz blog thingyy. BUT! Pictures n WebCounter NOT! RIZAH! Last2. tlg aku ks? Aku syg kau dari dorang kk! Tap AZURA IS MUCH2 MORE! Muahaha! I'll post moree! Chiow! =)

KEEP THE TAG ROLLING PPL!!

WHOEVER NOE ME, LINK ME N I'LL LINK U!

10:39 PM

Not been blogging coz i hv LOADS of projects to be done. N its ALL DONE! Ok i lied. Ive not even strted it yet. Donoe whr to strt, n don bother to. As i say, I SLACK ALOT! Common test 4 POA comfirm 'PASS'! Nyahahaha!

Ok, ALOT OF THINGS HAD HAPPEN since the dae i didnt update. N i mean LOADDSSSS of it! 2moro will b the BIG DAE. The truth will b spoken! Evrything will b out! Grreaatttt!! N hell Gyeahh im gona hv fun wit it! I cant waiittt!!

So, whu the hell r u drumer? Ok, i noe whu u r. Don hide urself. So don try to do those FuckUp tags! Sheesshh! AS IF! So, nxt tyme, leave ur REAL NAME will do. THX!

10:33 PM

Saturday, August 2, 2008

I'll blog more after tiz..

Hello wello!! This is my second tyme doin a blog. As the first 1, ALIFAH N RIZAH destroyed it! It was magnificent! Mayb they were soo jealous of it! Haha! Naahh.. actually they were helping me wif the blogskin thingyy, den tibe2 da save, abe hilang! For now, im finding difficulties to find a blogskin on my own. I don't really understand laa.. Bingettt oiii!! SISTALURBKU n GFS HELP ME!! Ok I'll b searching 4 a perfect 1 n i'll post moreee after tat. Chiow ppls! =)

IM NOT DONE YET PPL! STILL SEARCHING!!

THIS BLOGSKIN IS SOO NOT ME! KEEP THE TAG ROLLING! N IF I CANT FIND A PERFECT BLOGSKIN IN A WK. I'LL DELETE TIZ. HEHE! AMIGOS!!

N I WILL LINK YOU GUYS KS! TAG ME UR EMAIL PPLS!

10:39 PM